Mad and Different

These photos are my new mantra. I want to be mad (in an overcome by eagerness way) and different driving myself to the next place in my life by using my current situations to help me with what it is that is coming next.

I have decided not to be either complacent or obsessed in regards to my future. Instead I will be content with where I am now while I pursue while lies ahead.

So, let's seize the day, shall we?

Routine

My life has become one large routine. Sure the days might (rarely) change here and there, but in essence things stay the same.

Get up at 7 go to work until 2-4 (possibly 5 on an off day) and then come home agonizing over that one thing that I could have done slightly better. So then after guilting myself into feeling like a total screw up because I messed up in the beginning and now I care about it too much, I spend the evening wallowing in self-deprecating pity whereby I prescribe myself to a cure of Pinterest and tv, thereby wasting a good night of what otherwise could have been accomplishment.

And I hate myself for it.

So why the heck do I do this every day?

Why do I loath myself enough to let this daily torture prevail?

Because I'm afraid.

More than anything I want to quit the retail world and move onto what I feel I'm called to. More than anything I want to spend my days at home with the people I love, writing about the worlds I create.

And yet I come home "too tired" to change my situation.

Why can't I perk up and say, "no, you silly child, don't turn that tv on. become who you are created to be, not some lazy bones who can't manage to get herself past her fatigue."

I put off so many things because I just don't feel like it. And that is getting me no where.

I've become so comfortable in my uncomfortable life that I've started to think about (it pains me to say it) residing here. Living in this place I dislike so much. Buying a home with a 30 year mortgage in this prison that has shut me in.

And I cannot do that.

I have been made for so much more than this. I know I have because I have been told that I have.

And I cannot stay here waiting for things to change. Instead I must make the change in myself. I'm done being silly. I'm done putting off.

I have plans, goals and dreams that I must achieve and conquer. So I have to become uncomfortable so that I may become comfortable again in the right place.

I'm so ready for that.

So plans are changing, schedules are being made and things are getting turned OFF! I am going to limit myself. I am going to kick bad habits and create some new ones that turn this life upside-down. I like the sound of that.

I'm ready for change.

From 3 to 4

My family went to Chicago in March of this year for a collective birthday present (all of us have birthdays early in the year). These are some pictures from our first day there when we visited the Field Museum. My favorite parts of the whole museum were the gem exhibit and the wide variety of birds they had. I loved this view out the window too. I can never get enough of snow.

Three for One

Sunday, Monday, Tuesday all rolled into one for this post.
Hmm. At least today I'm not procrastinating.

All three of these photos are from the same photo shoot that I did for my photography class. It was my self-directed assignment where I took the concept of Earth, Fire and Water and mixed them together. It was pretty fun.

Lazy Bones

I procrastinate.
There I said it.
At least I know it.
But I have plans to change that. I know this blog isn't exactly what you'd call important (especially as I have 0, yes ZERO, followers), but it is a start. So I'm thinking that I'm going to challenge myself here on Saturday June the 1st 2013 to do something I've never done before and been too scared to do. I'm going to post a picture on here EVERYDAY.
Yes I realize that's a big job. And I don't really care that no one is going to see it yet. One day maybe they will and maybe they'll be inspired to stop their procrastination too.
So I'll start with today and this lovely photo right down here.

This is currently the picture on my laptop and I kind of love it right now.
I took this in March when it was still cool enough I needed a leather jacket to be comfy while outside. I miss those days.

Photography: Favorite

Today my photography class went to Cheekwood Botanical Gardens to take Natural Landscapes. This ended up being my favorite.

Photography

This semester I've been taking a photography course and I keep telling myself to upload my favorite photos I've taken so far. Alas, I've been lazy and neglected my blog. (like I didn't see that one coming) So today I'm making myself post.